That evil how to get rid of ants in the house syndrome Mal De Debarquement (Thinking of taking a benzodiazepine to treat MdDS …)

On the advice of UCLA neurologist dr. Yoon hee cha, I have been taking clonazepam (aka paxam, rivotril, klonopin) for the past two years to assist with my mdds how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar symptoms. The theory was, the sedative quality of this drug would calm down the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar suspected ‘over-activity’ in my brain that was causing the dizziness.

But now we know mdds isn’t an overactive brain. It’s a miscommunication between the ocular and vestibular systems and how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar can be fixed with exercises similar to physiotherapy. So in essence, the clonazepam isn’t really doing anything for my dizziness.

What it has done though is cause insomnia, anxiety, a feeling of emptiness and sadness and issues with my how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar dear old bladder. I only twigged to this a couple of months ago how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar when, after years of sleeping like a normal person, I started waking early in the night to go to how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar the toilet. Something I’ve never done before. The doctor said I had a bladder infection. I took his nasty antibiotics. The sleeping got worse.

I know now this is because antibiotics react with benzodiazepines how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar and can cause acute withdrawal symptoms. But a couple of months ago, I had no idea what was wrong, although I felt, in my waters, that the bladder infection wasn’t causing my new symptoms of sleeping difficulties and mood how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar changes.

After waking up at 4:30am or some rude hour for perhaps the second month how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar in a row, I suddenly had an epiphany. I put my doctor google fingers on the keyboard and how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar typed in ‘clonazepam addiction, clonazepam tolerance and clonazepam side effects’. This is a very condensed list of symptoms I found:

I rang my aunty who is a GP in cairns. I asked her if the clonazepam was, to put it plainly, making me insane. She said people can become tolerant to, or dependent on clonazepam and other benzodiazepines and one of how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar the common signs is insomnia.

I would say I’m a fairly stoic person. I can perform under a huge amount of stress, I can push through grief, I can continue to function as a largely normal twenty-something despite having a rare, dizzy condition. But there are two things I definitely cannot cope with: a lack of sleep and a lack of food. Some people get grumpy, some get a bit depressed. Me? I go your full feral, tearing-hair-out, crying, raging lunatic.

So a drug that causes insomnia is definitely not one how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar I want to take anymore. Problem is, you can’t just stop taking benzodiazepines cold turkey because the withdrawal how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar symptoms can be even worse than the side effects of how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar the drugs. So, once you make the decision to quit a benzo, the doctor will put you on a taper plan.

I know it doesn’t sound that bad. People are starving in the sudan, others are being beheaded in syria, some people have completely incurable diseases, have cancer, half a leg, some people are vegetables and some have had all their how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar children die. I don’t want to make those situations sound frivolous with my how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar four nights of insomnia. But what I will suggest to you is this: there is something extremely terrifying about battling your own mind. Insomnia does that to you. It makes you irrational, depressed, anxious and worst of all, if you’re alone while you’re awake in the middle of the night, you start to get scared of yourself.

A crumpled, broken, whimpering mess, I dragged myself to the doctor, again. He told me it takes 10 days to eliminate clonazepam how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar from your system and that’s why I wasn’t able to sleep. My brain was screaming for the drug. It wouldn’t rest until it got its fix. He said the insomnia would only last for the 10 how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar days it took to eliminate the clonazepam, I told him I’d rather die than be awake for 10 days straight. So he gave me stillnox, claiming it didn’t affect the same area of the brain that the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar benzos do (I have, however, since read research that stilnox, also known as zolpidem, works on the same receptors of the brain.) the doctor told me to take stillnox to help me how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar sleep while my body got rid of the clonazepam.

I lay awake, my chest constricting, my body paralysed. My limbs might have been lead-like, but my mind was rearing to go. You could have asked me to write a thesis on how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar the benefits of green smoothies and yoga and I could how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar have done it in a flash (with the help of some eye-controlled assistance technology). It’s a sensation I never want to experience again. I imagine it is not dissimilar to being in a how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar vegetative state.

Completely dissatisfied with my own doctor’s advice, I again rang up my aunty (the GP). She said a lot of people experience this ‘sleep paralysis’ with stilnox and that I may have come off the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar clonazepam too quickly. She suggested I go back to 0.25mg and taper off more slowly. So I did. That night I took half an orange pill and woke how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar the next morning at 8am. The longest sleep I had probably had in two-months. You would think it would make me feel better. But it didn’t. I started getting anxious about going to bed.

My doctor google habit spiked. I was on my phone every spare second, researching clonazepam withdrawal, coping strategies, I signed up for a benzo withdrawal support forum. These patients said they had only slept for twenty minutes how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar in the past 6-months! I slept fairly unsoundly for the next couple of nights. Had another all-nighter. Decided to go to my parents house, get some emotional support. While there, I was able to sleep a bit. But I felt as if my ability to sleep was how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar perched, precariously, on the edge of a high rise. One slight wind shift, and it would plunge to its death. My mental state was similarly fragile.

Then just two nights ago, while back at my own house, I had another night of insomnia. I didn’t drift off until 5:00am (after my psychologist uncle rang me at 3.30am to give me some relaxation techniques). I only slept until 7:00am. On two-hours of fitful sleep, I went to work the next day feeling like a how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar stranger in my own body.

That afternoon I went to a different doctor. He was really good. He sat patiently through my hour-long investigative-journalist style interrogation, where, armed with months of dr google research, I shot out words like GABA-receptors, nor adrenaline, melatonin, protracted withdrawal. I made him draw me diagrams of neurons, made him explain, in full scientific detail, what benzodiazepines do to your brain and why I’m having trouble sleeping. He drew the diagrams, answered my questions and asked me if I was a how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar science student. ‘no, I’m a lot worse than that’, I said.’ I’m a journalist’.

He then recommended I switch to valium (which has a longer half-life than clonazepam but is shorter acting, it is also a lot less potent. 0.5mg of clonazepam is the equivalent of about 10mg of how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar valium) and taper about 1mg every two weeks. He told me it could take up to a year how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar to completely get off the drug. He also wanted me to go on an anti-depressant to give me a better chance of ‘succeeding’ with getting off the drugs, to stop me from feeling ‘fed up’ with the withdrawal symptoms.

Unsure about switching to valium because of the longer half-life, I reluctantly signed his drug withdrawal contract and took my how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar new prescriptions home. I told my aunty about this different doctor’s new taper plan. She strongly suggested I stay with her formula. She said she and this new doctor were on the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar same wavelength, but she reckons she can get me off clonazepam faster how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar and with less side effects.

Her plan is to stay on 0.25 mg of clonazepam for another week, then go to 0.125 mg for two weeks. During this time I will start a new medication called how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar valdoxan, which is supposed to assist your brain in producing the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar sleep hormone melatonin. With her plan, I would get off the clonazepam in a couple of how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar weeks and shouldn’t be walking around strung out on valium all day.

I’m starting the valdoxan tonight, so I’ll keep you posted. I am also on an out-patient herbal withdrawal program called ‘the road back’. I’ve been on it for about a week and I how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar have noticed my anxiety about sleeping is better. My uncle, the kind psychologist who helped me sleep that other night, has also been a huge support! (pretty handy having your own medical team in the family how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar hey?)

Anyway, in the meantime, can I strongly suggest if you have mdds and are how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar thinking about taking a benzodiazepine to assist with your symptoms, just don’t even go there. I think there are better ways to manage your anxiety how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar about having this conditions, and really, we don’t need to worry anymore. Researchers know that mdds exists now. Sufferers aren’t being told they have depression or the dizziness is how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar ‘all in our heads’. There’s even drug-free treatment. That’s the treatment I’m all about.

While my withdrawal is by no means easy, it is a lot easier than some other people have how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar had. People can develop tinnitus, chronic pain, suicide-ideation, a doctor even told me one of his patients who how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar was trying to come off lorazepam (another type of benzo) started hallucinating and saw devils eating her children in the how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar car.

The doctors aren’t even sure what brain receptors benzos work on. That’s why it’s so hard to get off them. I’ve read it’s easier to withdraw from heroin than it is from how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar a benzo. Thankfully, certain benzos, including clonazepam, are now being made ‘restricted drugs’ in australia – meaning it’s a lot harder to access them. I wish that rule had been in place two-years ago when I went to the doctor and was how to get rid of ants in the house vinegar simply told, ‘oh clonazepam CAN be habit forming, but you’ll be fine, here have a low dose of 1mg.’

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